It was a successful week and now onto another…

I find it very difficult, especially after having such a wonderfully blessed and restful weekend, to go back out into the world…

I popped over to Jia's blog for a visit and found this quote, with which I resonated...

I know what happens when I work outside of the home. My home is destroyed. And I don't mean the actual house. I mean the peace within it. The love in my marriage. And yes, the dishes pile up. Bitterness rises. Lethargy kicks into overdrive . . .

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My desire is so strong to stay in my house, delve into the domesticities, and make a home...





That it is very distressing to walk again, among the muck of the world.

As I have often said, I feel as if I were born during the wrong time on this earth. There is much good to be thankful for, indeed; I just feel as though I am a piece from a bygone puzzle trying to fit into this modern one…A template from another time…



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I do not see an end to working outside of the home, as bills will always need to be paid, prices will always rise, and retirement must be saved for. Thus, my constant internal struggle to make some sort of peace within…That seems afar off, particularly at the start of the week when I have been fed and nourished and feel such a strong kinship with the role of womanhood…

It feels just the opposite of the innate feelings of homemaking…To go out and be a provider…I do a fine job at what I do, and indeed while doing it, I become engaged…Nonetheless, at the end of each day, another hat must be donned, another outfit put on, and it is then that I struggle once more, as I attempt to plunge into my house, and create (while tired and worn) a home…



Continuity evades me. Too many hats…Too many suits…Wear down the attire of the soul.



So…I pray for resolution within myself, as that is from where it must arise…Resolution and peace…

Strength…

Strength to conquer all that must be conquered!

My outfit is laid out…My book bag is packed…Materially, I am ready…

It is now that I go to prepare my mind…